Is This Real Life?

So shit is getting real and starting to hit the fan. I graduate next month. Like in 37 days. Today my best friend is moving away to her big girl internship that is like 13 hours away (might as well be out of the country at this point.) I have applied for graduation and I am emailing some people I know about potential jobs and thinking about getting myself an apartment...like what?! When did I become this old and grown.

The Dream: I want to find a marketing job in South (or maybe North) Carolina right after graduaction, move their with my boyfriend and have the absolutely most perfect life.

The Reality: I will probably be stuck around here for a couple years while I get my life together. What if I don't find a career job right out of school? What then? Work at Target? Victoria's Secret? Host tables at Old Chicago? Strip for money?!

I cried today because someone broke one of my shot glasses. It wasn't even my favorite (but it was up there.) How am I supposed to pay bills and have a salary when I cry over a broken shot glass?

What is life? How do I real world? Where do I even start?!