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I am a runner.

Well... in the sense that when I'm in a workout phase, running is my go to exersize. 

I have been a runner since I ran cross country in high school. 

To me, its my therapy. 

It is my time to meditate and reflect on my life. 

It makes me feel good. 

I am in complete control of my effort, in complete control of the pain. 

I have always, and will always enjoy running. 

It makes me feel good about myself. 

Until I realized I was comparing myself too much. 

I was comparing times to the ones I ran in high school. 

I was comparing my distance to how far I USED to be able to run. 

And I can't do that.

I cannot completely enjoy a run, if i am just worried about how well I used to do. 

If  I focus on how well I am not doing now. 

I am not a teenager, running 6 miles after school everyday. At this point, I am lucky to run 6 miles in a week (working to that!).

My body is different, my life is different, I am different. 

So why am I comparing myself to what I used to be? To how I used to run? 

Why do we compare ourselves to anyone else, in any situation? 

I am the worst at comparing myself to others. 

Not a day goes by where I don't compare myself to someone else.

But like my running plan, I am going to start focusing more on me and who I am, what positives I have to give, versus what I am not, or what someone else is.

I need to stop comparing me as a runner now, to me as a runner then. 

I need to focus on the positives of now - like that I have ran 3 times this week, that I ran a whole two miles without stopping for the first time in YEARS the other night. 

I need to focus on the fact that I am getting out there and actually doing it. 

 I need to worry about me, now. 

Let's Get Personal

What are some things that most people don’t know about you?

I was in the 4-H fishing, sewing, and country ham clubs in middle/high school. 
I was the only girl in fishing club, and my favorite days were the ones when we got to tie lures. I always liked to mix colors and make mine super bright and colorful. 
In sewing, I wont Grand Champion at the State Fair one year on a quilted backpack I had made. 
And I didn't even like country ham, my parents just wanted the 8 hams - all my sisters were in it and we got 2 hams a piece. 

What are your favorite movies?

The Other Guys - hands down. Most underrated movie ever.  

What is your favorite childhood memory?

Going to my grandparent's house for the holidays, and getting to see all my cousins and bond with them. 

Do you have an embarrassing story?

Everything is embarrassing to me.... 

What has been your greatest success in life so far?

Being where I am today. I am so thankful and grateful for everything in my life today. 

What are your most epic failures (and how did you overcome them)?

What would you say to a younger version of yourself?

Don't worry....everything works itself out, and is worth it in the end. 

What does a typical day in your life look like?

Wake up, go to work, go home, make dinner, watch Netflix, go to bed. 
...Actually, I feel like I am always doing something. Just depends on the day. 

What is your idea of the “perfect” day?

Cool morning to go running, a high of 75 in the afternoon. A low-key activity for the day, and a rainy evening with homemade food and cuddling on the couch watching Netflix. And a nap in there sometime, of course. 

If you could have lunch with one person, who would it be?

Tom Hanks. 

What things make you happy?

Ace, my friends and family, Evan, football, being on a boat, food, everything that I have 

What things have you learned from your parents? 

Love is real. That I always have their support no matter what. How to be a decent human being. What is expected of me. Responsibility. Money management. 

What is an important lesson you learned recently?

To slow down. Some things are out of my control. The world won't end because one thing didn't go as planned.